"...Imagine if we just threw our whole selves into friendships from the start, instead of being hesitant and having to learn to trust and to love. Go in with trust and love. Go in 120%. And if it doesn't work out, it doesn't work out. But you gave it your best. And that's all we need in life, to play at 100% in everything we do. And if you did that your whole life, you would live a life of such fulfilment..."
But the funny thing is that as soon as you get into these funks, these grumbles over little things that can't be changed, it kicks your whole day off into a downward spin. I'm definitely guilty of letting one tiny event throw me off kilter. Isn't that so silly?
I almost deleted this picture. I looked at it and saw my thunder thighs touching and my big pants and my tummy and my stretch marks and thought "bye Felicia" . Then I stopped. And I looked again.
"...as I was waiting for my friend to pick me up to head home, I was reflecting over my stay and what lessons and gratitudes I could take away from it..." What are you Grateful for?
I get asked so much what I eat, how I shop, how much I eat, how much I spend etc. So I thought it might be really helpful for me to do a little post about what I shop for!
...but there is something good in every day."
This is probably the hardest thing I've ever posted. Even though I'm not Day 1 Laura anymore, I still remember my emotions whilst taking these first photos. I still remember the fear of judgement I felt in my daily life, the shame around who I'd let myself become, the utter sadness that consumed me looking in the mirror at this version of me. That Laura was exhausted, miserable and lacking in any spice. I'd lost the vibrancy that I've always been known for, I had no energy and I was sick of not achieving the things I desired. In my eyes, I was failing at all aspects of my life.