This is probably the hardest thing I've ever posted. Even though I'm not Day 1 Laura anymore, I still remember my emotions whilst taking these first photos. I still remember the fear of judgement I felt in my daily life, the shame around who I'd let myself become, the utter sadness that consumed me looking in the mirror at this version of me. That Laura was exhausted, miserable and lacking in any spice. I'd lost the vibrancy that I've always been known for, I had no energy and I was sick of not achieving the things I desired. In my eyes, I was failing at all aspects of my life.
The Breakdown happens every few months and they can last anywhere from a day to ten days. I've never found one to be triggered by anything but they seem to impact all areas of your life.
I did not want to train today. I could have found 30 reasons why I couldn't go to the gym, including not having time. When you want to say 'I don't have time', trying saying 'that's not a priority' instead and see how that sounds. That's what I did this morning and you can bet that… Continue reading Upper Body Quick 15
Let's do this!
I would go to the gym, to bootcamps, to fitness classes. I'd take up running and then realise I hated it, I'd lift weights in the bedroom of my flat. I tried pole fitness, and rugby and I went back to hockey. But nothing stuck. I was unhealthy, unhappy and unmotivated.